Its complicated

Love-such a powerful bond!

I dreamt of her..the 3rd time.We were in a big posh mansion and we had some kind of super-powers and we were playing hide and seek with other people who had super-powers and the ones who lost were put inside a glass bottle filled with  a small amount of magical water which made the person turn a mere 5 inch tall because he lost his game.She was constantly looking at me,giving me these glances that hinted another shot at the broken relationship,a chance to rebuild again what was once lost.Then the scene shifts to a party hall the size of a Las Vegas Casino and I am having a gala time in here with the ladies,the food and the wealthy..when she comes into my spotlight.What caught me off-guard was that she was not wearing her veil.She had let out her hair for the first time in front of public and oh my what hair she had! Jet black..long...shoulder length with perfect curls..and she was in a black dress that seemed to accentuate her features and she was not wearing her usual glasses which instantly gave depth to her character.I was drawn to her like a geek to an Iphone..I had missed her so much..The whole hyper-real dream-scape was playing to the song "Far Away by Trumpet Thing" Click Here to listen to the song.I wanted to be with her without losing a second but I guess my male ego wouldnt let me.It kept telling me look away and act a bit flamboyantly .I think it did not wanted to get hurt by making me sound like a pathetic guy who loved his woman so much that he used to cry in her absence.But I guess..it was my fault that all of this happened."Never make a girl fall for you if you don't plan on catching her" I shouldn't have made her think about me all the time.I dont know what she found so charming in me but I guess that charm worked at my disadvantage as she was not able to keep this relationship of ours under-wraps any more and that's why it came to a  not-so-drama laden end.Its quite ironic though...She left me for the same reason she fell in love with me....I made her go crazy.Thats true..she typed the reason why she is ending this;because she went crazy during the holiday in my absence.She wanted to hear my voice, my lovely,beautiful words and harsh criticism,She liked me whole.Even though elder to me,she was..she still was possessive of me, so was I of her and even though she was O.K with me being with my friends during the holiday,she couldn't let me leave her side.I guess now I understand what she felt at that time.Somethings only come to our realization After we have lost those precious things.I think we had formed a symbiotic kind of a relationship...we could sense each other's thoughts.Msging her at the right moment when she was writing my name on her notes during her class was not a coincidence.But I know that there is no room for light to come in..there is no opportunity for this again.She made that clear when she msged me.."Can we really be just friends?!" I guess not.And although I am sad without her..I am happy that she is gone.she wanted this to end.Why would I stop her? If you love someone..let that being go,free that person from the thorns of love if thats what makes her happy.In the end,I guess we both are getting our lives back to normalcy.She was the catalyst of making me more mature in these relationships and the responsibilities that come with them,I made sure I let her know of this thankful gesture of hers.I am not in contact with her anymore and its quite heinous for us to not to be but I guess its best for the both of us..or is it?

Camp Unreachable!

                     08/08/10 #1st   camp unreachable

Upon landing, we were greeted with two other students, they were:-Andrea, from Canada and Chung-An (Andy) from Taiwan! We also met our Man of the Job, a guy who was here to receive us. But we actually had to stay at the airport for a long, long time. We were in a bus but we were stuck in here because many students had yet not arrived. We were at the airport from 12:00 to around 15:45, which was pretty exhausting without food and water. People had not even started to familiarize themselves when Mexicans had already formed a group and having a party. Finally we hit the road and I was a bit surprised with the country side looks Helsinki and Karrkuu sported. On the way to the camp, we were attacked by a cloud of rain. It was quite heavy and reminded me a bit of Mumbai! As expected it was a storm that actually knocked the power of the camp when we reached there. We were greeted with many seniors and some of them were very helpful to us. We just had an Apple that day but it was ok. Things were supposed to turn into good things and I longed for it. I got myself a nice room-mate, he is Josh-from Ohio, U.S.A. The night ended as it had fallen…silently.

The journey begins!

Its time to leave India-Incredible India 

The bags had been set, documents were in the pocket, and emotions were suppressed, they will be needed in the final destination. With a heavy heart and a weary soul, I stepped out of my solitary house, ready to take on the world. With the realizations of the greater goal and the upcoming battle with oneself, I was ready to unleash the WARRIOR WITHIN.

Working towards a common goal :)

The journey did not take place in the physical world, oh no it didn't! It took place in my mind, playing chaos theory with my neurons. The memories, the fears were all coming back to me. But I had to hold on. I was being counted upon; I was responsible for the outlook that the exchange students were going to adopt for this country. India would not be the slum dog in this trip. I would not let that happen……The honking of the horns signaled our arrival at the airport. It was time for MOM to let go…to let go of her only son, the precious boy who survived despite being foretold that he won't make it. The passenger line continued to march ahead without a reason not to hit the others with the trolleys, all ready to go and try their luck, but it was me who was not ready to leave…yet. One THING was amiss, the hug that my mom deserved, and a hug that will be the only touch lasting my impression on her for the next year. But as they say, the world moves on, I was pushed inside to check-in. Standing there, a ticket in hand, the only thing that kept me going ahead was the time I will be able to meet her again, the next year. Although I had cajoled the moment of missing to say goodbye to mom, she wasn't about to accept that. I was able to bid her goodbye, only after the security fell for the excess luggage trick! Our parting did bring a relief into my heart. But it wasn't nothing compared to the isolation, alienation I was about to face in Finland. 

The flight took me to my new home via Frankfurt, an airport with such less amount of security; that it was way enough to jeopardize it and expose it .The distance covered to reach my connecting flight was enough to make me lose a 100 kcal. Is this what the world calls it now days; connecting flights!? Stepping on to the concrete covered runaway to reach my final flight to Helsinki, my face was kissed by the gentle air and refreshing smell that it carried with it. I began pondering whether I should make friends right from the start, during the orientation, or to do it after joining a school. My question was answered in the form of two exchange students from Canada. They were Karly and Alysha, both of them behaving like sisters in a park. After a brief introduction with them, I was made aware of another student who was with us. A Mexican, he was Enrique, a sweet guy to be friends with in the first impression. Our flight was as pleasant as it could be, with the addition of a rapport between us three. Finally…I had landed to a place where I was going to change myself for the better. I had set my foot on Finland.

Soturi Sisalla:-The Warrior Wtihin

Where does this road lead?

A new journey will begin!

Hi all.I am going for Finland today and I have decided to post my experiences,pleasures,precious moments on my blog.I will miss you all,especially my mom,friends,ex-colleagues and others who I have been fortunate enough to be their friends.These people have taught me a great deal about life.Its time to learn new things,face greater challenges,make new friends,expand my horizons,dream bigger,better;its time....to unleash the WARRIOR WITHIN.

the tie day

today i went to the college wearing a tie as it was the tie and the saree day.snapped pics of tarun and vishaka.davis was looking good with the black tie.he clicked my photos and told me that i looked like a principal.went to see dasvidanya.a brilliant movie.many gunfire and bomb blast took place near nariman point,vt station,taj hotel and oberoi hotel.cafe leopold was the first target of the terrorist attacks.this is the first time such high profile places have been targeted.

why pick on me ?

i experienced  some trouble from the girls in the second row.i don't know what there problem is but they always speak rudely to me .whenever i look behind the go mad at me.i cannot always look in the front .when the teacher is speaking and the lesson is going on i am attentive.but after that i cannot keep on looking in the front,there is nothing to see,i get bored and i turn my head just to see and hear the gossip of the students behind.they tell me to go behind but i can't .i want to go behind,sit with friends,talk,gossip.but it is just not possible.i cannot concentrate on my studies.i am not the person who is going to prefer friends over studies.i cannot make compromises on that.

sister's birthday

i got some notes to complete and today was my sister's birthday.i met a school friend of mine who himself is in wilson college and i took his number.i made th pass for first class travel.

new friends

hectic and the last day of the college week,it was finally saturday and i made some new friends job and mayami.both are manipuri.mummy sold her old watch and brought a new on.i got two new perfumes.i had my dinner in mahesh,juhu.had a bombil fry,prawns with rice and curry.

second day full of friends

I made a lot of friends,one is praveen,then a girl named norilda.we started with our lectures.the teachers are good